“A lifetime of concealing the act of masturbation from family, friends, and lovers must have been at the core of my sexual repression…” PG. 908 (on Kindle)
This quote is meaningful to me because I see myself in it. This course has helped me try new things. And so, I attempted to share my masturbation practice with a partner. I asked him to lay down beside me. He touched me gently and I told him to not touch me at all and that I needed to feel like I was alone. His presence next to me kept me feeling uneasy so I put a blindfold on him. I wasn’t used to masturbating with someone in the same room as me. I finally decided to watch porn to help me focus. I was able to orgasm but it was a “small” one, not like how it feels when I’m alone.
I wanted to share my masturbation experience with him but I ended up isolating myself as much as possible. Betty’s words help me to see why I did that.
