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Currently taste seems negligible occasionally salty but never sweet. Historically I’ve paid way more attention to smell ever since I had a hemophilias infection and the smell was so bad (like a dead thing!) that I wanted to be vigilant about never experiencing that again.
I used my fingers almost exclusively when I was in my teens and 20s. We didn’t have the vibes so available, at least I didn’t. As a married woman up until body sex I didn’t masturbate much at all. I guess I missed out on a lot of pleasure I could’ve had but oh well better late than never! now I’m trying a lot of things techniques, etc. because of the course. Currently I’m liking patting and more gentle strokes. I remember I used to get pretty ballistic in the younger days. when I did masturbate, I relied on the magic wand almost exclusively recently I went shopping, and I got another wind like toy because my recently purchased mini died. I also bought a little clitoralstimulator that looks like a little peach. I haven’t got the hang of that one yet.
Whenever I have taken the time and trusted the process of vulva massage I have never had regrets or been disappointed. I’ve done this particular exercise before. Ditto to what other students have said about Carlin’s voice and leads. I have thought, but never would have mentioned these feelings. I’m looking forward to being able to devote time in the morning to vulva massage.
Getting more practice and more comfortable with the vulva massage but was having trouble making private time for me. I finally have talked with my partner and I’m going to get some time in the house alone some mornings that will be my time for me. I’m looking forward to getting some sort of a regular cadence going.
Talk about gaslighting! I did not know that the hymen is not actually a real thing. I knew that it didn’t always break from penetration but from any kind of activity and I don’t really think I had that experience with my first sexual penetration experience. The thing that blows me away is that I didn’t realize the total fallacy of it. It really blows my mind how over history people seem to have bought into it thinking about tests of virginity for women who were “marrying” as royalty, etc. So MUCH abuse of women & girls over a concept! It makes complete sense to me that the Bodysex curriculum/recommendations for beginners are that the person themselves ought to be the first first one to penetrate the vagina or the anus. I really ache for youngsters or anybody who feels like the first time needs to be almost forced and needs to be painful and that there needs to be blood. I think about my nieces and nephews and other young people that I consider that I have some maybe responsibility to them to provide guidance that may be their parents wouldn’t even know how to give. I have to think about this and maybe I’ll start up a discussion with my female in laws and mother’s among mothers of daughters among our clan.
My experience was pleasant, nostalgic, if a little self-conscious, to reacquaint myself with the aesthetic of the various forms. It had been a long time since I’d seen much pussy. I very rarely watch porn & don’t see it socially. I felt remiss in not staying connected to the cunt energy. In 1977 or so I was making cunt forms in my art school classes…. 50 years ago… I remember how intrigued and stimulated I was in those days… Time to return to the SOURCE.
New thing: I was unaware of ALL the variety. The exquisite taxonomy, variations in every anatomical structure, variations in color, texture, etc. Not quite like snowflakes! So alive and warm!!
<p class=”p1″><span class=”s1″>My experience was pleasant, nostalgic, if a little self-conscious, as I reacquainted myself with the aesthetic of the various forms. It had been a long time since I’d seen much pussy. I very rarely watch porn & don’t see it socially. I felt remiss in not staying connected to the cunt energy. In 1977 or so I was making cunt forms in my art school classes…. 50 years ago… I remember how intrigued and stimulated I was in those days… Time to return to the SOURCE. Reading the book CUNT for the course was exhilarating </span></p>
<p class=”p1″><span class=”s1″>New thing: I was unaware of ALL the variety. The exquisite taxonomy, variations in every anatomical structure, variations in color, texture, etc. Not quite like snowflakes! So alive and warm!!</span></p>I’ve returned to chiropractic care.
I’m eating less junk and drinking more water.
I’m taking Laura’s course and I will do the “homework.
I will continue regular tai chi.
I will ride my bike and see if I can recapture the feelings of freedom and exhilaration that I remember from junior high.
Next month I’m going to South Dakota to masturbate! This summer I’m going to Lansing to masturbate! In the Fall I’m going downtown to masturbate!
I am going to tell you what I want to be able to tell myself:
1) I’m so proud that I have regained my health and energy…
2) I’m ecstatic that I am reclaiming my mojo and ready to share it with my partner …
3) I can have a full body orgasm on my own pretty much anytime I want… going “slow by slow”
I have luckily avoided genital herpes and many of the other infections. I have occasionally had sores on my mouth which I carefully manage. At least once I had haemophilus, a very smelly one! I probably picked it up from a partner. All I remember is needing to make sure I didn’t stink in public.
Being a health care provider myself I have always had access to care that been supportive and good and thorough. I know that’s lucky. I’ve also guided many of my own clients to proper care, educated them re prevention, andassisted with shame amelioration.
I’ve often described myself as a ‘poster child’ for happy childless women. I like the term intentional mother more.
Difficult to listen knowing how women lost the right to choose… I did not know Carol Downer’s name! What a warrior. Looking forward to learning. I can hardly think about the overturn of Roe without wanting to scream. It makes sense but I never thought about women having to hide their gender to be fairly evaluated on law tests.
Personally I haven’t had to have an abortion. I made the decision to do it then was not actually pregnant. I was in a terrible mistake of a marriage, under 30, pretty sure I never wanted kids. I got lucky but have been through it with clients, though, quite a few times. Always grateful they had that choice and honored to be a trusted support and sounding board.
In addition, I’ve often considered how, as a nurse, I might be able to assist with menstrual extraction. Now glad to know more details about how it actually works and the contrast to ending a pregnancy.I very much appreciated Betty’s and Carlin’s candor about their experiences.
I’m embarrassed that I really don’t remember having any trouble going through menopause. Probably there was something and I don’t want to remember! Thankfully all is pretty good now. Dryness yes, but going to ask doc @ some topical estrogen cream.
I never aspired to be a mother. Early on I recognized that I had been mothered very ambivalently and I didn’t want to pass that on. I have seldom regretted that choice. My way to contribute to the future is to be the best therapist I can and to support my friends, neighbors, and coworkers who ARE moms. When people inquire whether I have children I always answer “I give at the office!”
Like said in the last post, I got through it. The pain was the worst of it. The PMS I barely remember. I probably drank alcohol to cope at first. I got sober in my 30’s and was kinder to my body, let myself rest and appreciate my womanhood and extra sensitivity. The one thing I’d like to change for the next generation is to celebrate the menarche and get rid of the shame/need for secrecy.
